Hesitation January 31, 2009

You popped the question

Waiting for my answer

Putting all your hopes

Putting all your dreams

 

But I was silent

Without a word to say

Blushing all over

No answer given

 

‘cause, baby

I don’t wanna waste my time with the wrong guy

‘cause, baby

I wanna get it right this time

 

Sad smile on your face

Your turn to be silent

Trashed away your hopes

Trashed away your dreams

 

And we stopped talking

Worried and uneasy

You were in despair

I was hesitant

 

‘cause, baby

I don’t wanna waste my time with the wrong guy

‘cause, baby

I wanna get it right this time

 

So I thought over it

To find my answer within

To see your smile again

To start anew with you

 

‘cause, baby

I don’t wanna waste my time with the wrong guy

‘cause, baby

I wanna get it right this time

 

‘cause, baby

I love you

Little Girl’s Innocence January 27, 2009

She gave me a hug

Cuddled me on the first sight

Cheerfully welcoming

With purity on her mind

 

She whispered to my ear

“Would you like to play with me?”

With her soft angelic voice

Melting every heart that hears

 

She grabbed my hand

Took me into her world

Of games and fantasies

Of her wild wild mind

 

She played with her face

Mimicked me so playfully

Lively and bubbly

Shining eyes on her face

 

She danced around the house

Gleefully as she could be

The center of attraction

Captivating everyone

 

She ended her day

In pajamas into her dreamland

Waving her right hand

She greeted a good night

 

 

Dedicated to Foo Jia Yi

Be good, gal =)

Mother’s Love January 25, 2009

When I could not bear the heavy load on my shoulders

When things seem to be discouraging

When life seems so bleak

When I cry

 

She would

 

Surround her arms around me

Stroke my hair and wipe my tears

Comfort me with her genuine smile

And say, “Everything is gonna be alright, my dear”

 

I feel

 

Her pure mindedness

Her warmness that shines

Her trust in me that gives me the strength

To get through every obstacle with a new spirit

 

How I wish you were not thousand miles away

How I wish you were here

Ma, I miss you

Which career path should I choose? January 21, 2009

Took an online test in http://www.careerpath.com (A Snapshot of You) and got interesting result!

 

 Hobbies include: performing or listening to music, attending theater, story telling, journaling, decorative arts, painting.

• yes, I have this habit of turning on some music and sing along with it.
• no, I rarely go to theatrical shows.
• no, I don’t do story telling. But I like to talk!
• yes, I am journaling in this blog with my own style of writing.
• yes, I liked to challenge my visual art skills in the past.

 

Career choice often are: Editor, Journalist, Teacher, Strategic Planner, Consultant, Performing Arts, Marketing, Communications, Research and Development.

• Editor, Journalist: much room for improvement, indeed.
• Teacher: surprise surprise!
• Strategic Planner: hmmm…
• Consultant: must practice my speaking skills!
• Performing Arts: to amaze the crowd with my performance….wildest dream ever!
• Marketing: since I enjoy getting to know people and talk, should I go for sales job?
• Communications: oh baby, would you like to specify what kind of job I am most suitable in this area? broadcasting? filming? printed media?
• Research and Development: T_T

 

Conclusion:

No wonder many people are surprised to know that I study engineering! Seems like I am in a wrong direction. *sigh*

Help me, please.

Count Your Blessings January 18, 2009

Sometimes, we don’t get what we want in life and feel disappointed

Sometimes, we forget about the great things we had in the past, taking it for granted

Sometimes, all we should do is simply look into the past and count those good old memories

And we will see how blessed our lives have been ^^

 

This is a song that my church choir (I am part of it!) performed today

Hope it will be (another) blessing to you all

Enjoy!

=)

 

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Count Your Blessings

 

When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed

When you are discouraged thinking all is lost

Count your many blessings name them one by one

And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done

 

Count your blessings name them one by one

Count your blessings see what God hath done

Count your blessings name them one by one

Count your many blessings see what God hath done

 

Are you ever burdened with a load of care?

Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?

Count your many blessings every doubt will fly

And you will be singing as the days go by

 

So amid the conflict whether great or small

Do not be discouraged God is over all

Count your many blessings angels will attend

Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end

 

Count your blessings name them one by one

Count your blessings see what God hath done

Count your blessings name them one by one

Count your many blessings see what God hath done

Flashback

i miss the golden days

when i felt so great about myself

 

i miss those days

i miss those feelings

i miss the pride

 

good old memories

 

*sigh*

*wondering whether i still keep those school uniforms*

Joke of the day January 12, 2009

A joke from a friend of mine, although she did not mean it as a joke:

 

stef, u kn turunan batak+chinese yg secara gen aj jago ngomong.. maybe u should try to find those genes first 🙂

 

(stef, u have batak+chinese blood, which is genetically a good speaker…maybe u should try to find those genes first 🙂)

 

 

Thanks, Febri! You made my day! =)

The staircase January 10, 2009

 

He had a crush on this girl

With sparkling eyes

And a cheeky smile

Sitting on that corner everyday

An attraction like no other

 

He peeped through the window

And saw her nearing

So he stood by the staircase

And smiled as she walked up

An attraction like no other

 

So he walked down

With hands inside his jacket

Sweaty palms to cover

And feelings to hide

An attraction like no other

 

Week after week

She had been invading his every moment

Week after week

He had been waiting for this moment

 

So they met in the eyes

And he started his words

Their first conversation

Hoping to have more

An attraction like no other

 

A short conversation indeed

And there he was

Smiled as she left

And there he was

One step closer

Fairy tale January 8, 2009

Little girl tugged on her bed

Hearing the soothing voice

Hearing the love story

Hearing the dream

 

Of that prince

that goes against all odds

that sweeps her off her feet

that promises happiness

 

A happy ending

with that ballroom dancing

with that firework

with that vow

 

Just a fairy tale

A mere fantasy

A mere imagination

A mere utopia

 

Just a fairy tale

Too good to be true

SO WAKE UP AND STOP DREAMING

 

 

– In remembrance of her childhood fantasies –

 

In whose hands is our money? January 7, 2009

It started off in a MSN conversation with one Indonesian girl. I was gloomy and all with uncertainties of the future as I am about to graduate a few months away from now. As the conversation went on, this sentence came out of her mind.

F: neng~, rezeki itu udah ada yang ngatur . tinggal kita usaha ajah, sesuai sama hati kita bilangnya apa.

(F: miss~, money is in the hands of God. We just need to make our effort, just follow what our hearts say)

To be honest, I somewhat disagree with this opinion. To me, God does not allocate how much money everyone on earth earns. Think about it. If He does, I pity those people who live under poverty. If God controls our fate, why would He want his lovely creatures to struggle in poverty? He loves every soul on earth after all.

I would like to correct this opinion. I believe God gives everyone of us some talents. And the talents we have are the options to make our living. Yet, we can’t just sit there and relax and hope for money to come easily. We need to work our talents out and that’s where the money comes from. God just provides us the ways – our talents, not money – and we need to fight for it.